Something like this isn’t exactly easy to write about. In fact, this is the first time I’ve even written a long form blog in almost three years. However, God placed something on my heart and I truly feel like it could help someone.
There’s a question that has been driving me absolutely insane from a few days now: what do I do when God says, “no”?
Psalms 37:4 (NIV) reads, “Take delight in the Lord, and He will give you the desires of your heart.”
I think it is important that we actually take a look at the word “desires” before I truly go in on this topic. You see, my dear friend Devin Favors (you may know him as Reborn) made an excellent point the other night. He said, “when we pursue God, He gives us desires.” Actually let that one sit. When we are pursuing God, He will give us desires that are holy. He will give us desires that maybe aren’t our desires.
Galatians 5:24 (NIV) reads, “Those who belong to Christ Jesus have crucified the flesh and its passions and desires.”
Let. That. Sit.
There are things that we want that may not be from God. Maybe that’s why the lack of progress or the lack of fulfillment is there. Because those desires are to be crucified.
Another dear friend of mine, Quentin Dunson, had me over on Tuesday night and punched me straight through the heart. He said, “when you have an area of your life that there isn’t peace, it’s because God isn’t Lord of that part of you.” FAM! He isn’t the Lord of part of us. He is to be Lord of EVERYTHING. It’s not a partial deal with God. He is your Lord or He’s not.
Often times, we plead our case with God. We tell Him what we’ve done, things we’ve given up for the calling, yada yada yada. It’s like we forget that He gave up Jesus so that we could be with Him. Yeah, that one hurt me too. Sometimes I just want to plead my case and be right for once, but He gave up so much more than I ever could just so that we could be together. He did it for you too.
Alright, Mikeal, what’s the point of this?
When you haven’t crucified your fleshly desires, you start to plead your case with God. When you plead your case with God, you may lose (more often than not). When God says “no” to that desire, what are you going to do?
I think it brings us back to Sunday. We talked about Sarah Thebarge and her mission to be known as “the girl who loved Jesus more.” Is that you? Are you going to be met head on with adversity and choose God over everything? Are you going to be the person who loves God so radically that it doesn’t matter if you never change jobs, get a spouse, have kids, get a pet, etc.? Are you going to choose obedience over a fleshly desire?
For me, personally, I was recently met with those questions. And knowing I am called to a life of singleness is a much harder pill to swallow than it is to joke about. It was not an easy few days. Yelling at God, talking with mentors and friends. Crying because that is something I thought would be a realistic ask. However, singleness is a beautiful gift that allows me to focus on everything God is doing. So my prayer is to be known as “the man who loves Jesus more.”
Love you all. If you ever need anything, reach out. And always…stay unashamed.